Domestic Geek

OK, maybe not feeling scared, but a little wigged out. I've heard this voice before call my shortened name (Donna). It's ususally when I'm drifting off to sleep or something. It's always short, urgent and once. Since it always happens when I'm going to sleep, I figured it was some trick my mind plays on me or my subconsious talking or something. Once it happened when I had forgot to set my alarm and it woke me up. Well, today it happened when I was wide awake and I was home all by myself. Freaked me out, it did. Could it still be my subconscious? Maybe. Maybe not. I'll never know for sure. *shudder*

As Russ pointed out, it’s been almost two weeks since I’ve posted. I’ve had a lot on my mind lately and am trying to sort through it all. To not be all woe all the time, I haven’t felt like posting here. Something major needs to change in my life and I’m not quite sure yet how to make that happen. Maybe I need some of these:



Seriously, though, after the hell of the last week, one thing is clear—I’m not going to get ahead in my present situation. I have all of these dreams and they all require capital to get going. I can’t get any money whatsoever set aside, especially now that I have a car payment again. Don't get me wrong, I love my Baja. Having that car actually represents a goal achieved, but I’m tired. I hate working every day of the week. I hate not having the energy (or the money) to go have any fun. I hate having to get by on five or six hours of sleep if I actually want to see Marcus. I hate the stress of trying to juggle when bills are due with when money is supposed to come in.

I hate the increased crime and bad things that happen in and around Aurora. Random people get shot on I-70 at Havana and along I-25. Shootings at the Aurora Mall. Gang problems, dead bodies, homeless people, illegal Mexicans. I'm sick of all of it.

I had a whole list of stuff I was going to rant about—work problems (both jobs suck ass), politics, health issues, neighbor problems, etc., but I’ve changed my mind. Bitching and moaning isn’t going to change any of it. I’m becoming a woman of action. If I post here less frequently, it’s because I’m working on stuff to turn my life around. I’m tired of being in the rut. Time to stop digging and start climbing out.

Man, I thought for sure that J.K. Rowling would have something cool on her website when the clock stuck midnight in England. No such luck! Oh, well.

I tried to talk Marcus into accompanying me to the Tattered Cover this evening. Also no such luck. Probably has to do with the large amount of children that will be there and that he and Mike are going to Winter Park to mountain bike tomorrow.

After reading Joelle lamenting about needing to see a dentist havng no dental insurance and many of her fine commenters recommending she look into Delta Dental, I did as well (we all know what fine shape my teeth are in). Even if I do manage to get health benefits from this company, there is no dental offered here at all. Well, I'm confused. I can't find anywhere on that site where one can actually get a dental plan. There is a reduced fee plan, but it's not insurance. Do I need to find an insurance agent or something? Maybe somebody more together than I have been lately can figure it out and let me know.

Edit: Nevermind. I went to the main Delta Dental (not Colorado's) site and individual insurance is not offered in my state. Booooooooo. I'm moving. I still need to find me some dental somewhere.

Marcus sold my old Green Subaru today. He put it on Craig's List last night and people were jumping all over it. I bawled while I took the license plates off this morning. I told Marcus that I felt like I was abandoning an old friend. That car and I spent more time together in the last few years than Marcus and I had. *sigh* Oh, well. I hope the new owner can make it run and get many more years out of it. I feel better about this than just taking it to the crusher. That was the next plan if nobody would buy it. Don't get me wrong, I'm loving my new Baja to pieces. I still feel sad.

I guess I should go home for the day. I haven't done squat here. I did find a really cool font that I MUST BUY! If I'm going to get into the t-shirt biz apart from working here, this Ballpark Script font will be invaluable. It even comes with the swashes that go underneath.

OK, not going to do this in the near future, but I'd better post a link to remind myself. I saw a show on HGTV once that put a beta fish in a vase with a plant. How cool. Once Marcus and I get around to either moving to a house or putting our house on some land, I'd like to do that. Here's a page about beta vases at the DIY Network site that explains about the process.